Waiting for the world to end.

Sometimes I wonder if I can ever get it right as I find myself, once again, sitting in the stillness of the imminent storm, wondering if I can live through the night. I hold your memories just a little closer to me before the time comes for me to let them go. I watch from half a world away as you go through your day, lost in your thoughts.

How many times can your world end before you really die?

How many lifetimes?

How do I do it?

I.

I believed that two worlds as distant as the stars can collide if their courses are charted to cross.
I believed there are no boundaries that cannot be overstepped, if hearts permit.
I believed that life would be much more bearable should we walk side by side.
I have believed in you.

But today, I stopped believing.

Madness.

I took your hands as your world slipped away. Watched the spark in your eyes clouded over and the distance in your gaze grew. I leaned towards you and whispered your name, choking back my tears as you sat still and silent in the chaos of your mind. I sat with you for hours that day, not knowing what I was hoping for, not knowing if I was even hoping.

I, am sitting here. Still.

If you hate me after what I say
Can't put it off any longer
Just gotta tell you anyway.

You're the one girl in town I'd marry
Girl, I'd marry you now if I were free
I wish it could be.

I could love you but why begin it
Cause there ain't any future in it
She's got me, but I'm not free.

Wish I never had known you better
Wish I knew you before I met her
How good it would be for me.

Should've told her that I can't linger
There's a wedding ring on my finger
She's got me and I'm not free.

Bye bye baby, baby goodbye
Bye baby, baby bye bye
Bye bye baby, don't make me cry
Bye baby, baby bye bye.
- Bay City Rollers